Sat Nam Goddesses,
When I owned a kundalini yoga studio, I started collecting a unique set of experiences interacting with students from different parts of the world. Many of them would introduce themselves in a friendly way by first letting me know which teacher or training program they identified with. “So and so” is my teacher I would hear them say with a shy tone—implicit was the understanding that they revered and maybe even loved this person and were worried about being sacred enough when mentioning their connection. I would also get some students let me know in a not-so-friendly-way from whom they had learned kundalini, and implicit in those conversations was that lucky for me they were bringing the real kundalini to my little corner of this planet.
I always felt a little sad for these yogis after these encounters. And I never really knew why. Until last week when I was wrapped in a Buffalo skin under the bright stars of the Sedona night…earlier that week, I had been connecting with trees and the elements of Nature, asking them for messages I could share with my students. A yogini friend that was doing the same channeled a beautiful song from Water, which she sang and brought me to tears. The message of the song was to feel all of the feelings of this human experience, truly revel in them, and when they were too much, to give the feelings to the Water. Then Water told my friend that it wished that instead of identifying ourselves by our towns, neighborhoods, and last names, why couldn’t we have our names followed by the name of our nearest source of water?
And so with this idea blooming in my mind, my body nestled in the Buffalo Skin, sacred geometry swirling beneath my closed eyelids, the final stanza from Japji by Guru Nanak rolled across my mind: water is the father, air is the teacher, and earth the great mother of all. Humans, all of us, have agendas. YB said that these “hidden agendas” are the product of the “hidden self” creating an imaginary personality to satisfy beliefs about the Self and the world acquired at an early age. Identifying yourself as a student of so-and-so or part of a certain community is advocating for it, protecting it, creating polarity, and making it so that the thought of acting in non-accordance of that teacher or community’s hidden agenda can create a seed of fear in your consciousness—a fear that will ultimately prevent your True Identity from emerging.
You know who doesn’t have an agenda? Air. Water. Fire. Earth. Ether. Plants. Trees. Wind. And Waves. These Teachers are here to pulse with the rhythm of Mother Nature. They are also true shamans, here to guide us to our True Identity if we can get quiet enough to listen. What if we started honoring and revering them the way we do human teachers? Getting shy about our sacred relationship with them? Why can’t we identify with our nearest water source at the end of our names?
I have had plenty of teachers along my path, but ultimately, I always end up coming to a fork in the road where one path leads to greater self awareness, and the other leads to a Piscean Age “faux-respect”—a respect that is fueled by fear of leaving what is known for the unknown and Infinite.
There is a saying in the recovery community: take what you like and leave the rest. This Full Moon Taurus I feel compelled to cross-pollinate this mantra within the yoga and meditation communities. It means you take what you need, and when it starts to be a drag on your journey to remembering YOU, you move on in peace, and keep on angling towards more moments when True Identity can emerge and become liberated, now. (BTW, It gets easier to choose Dharma when you come to that fork in the road, the more you keep doing it…)
If you are on my Closed Facebook Group, Kundalini with Sheel, on Wednesday morning I will put put up a full moon experience* to help you get some steadiness and balance in your Tattva situation. Free. 🙂 Hopefully before my kids get up so that there are no random unicorns, kitty cats, pumpkins and whatever else floating across the screen…
Meanwhile, please continue the Venus Retrograde breathwork, allowing your consciousness to shift in alignment with the shift of the collective consciousness away from the old Piscean Age paradigm to an Aquarian Age one of…ONENESS. Thank you for all the wonderful feedback and emails about your experiences. I love hearing from you. It’s not too late to join, you can still sign up here.
Happy Full Moon!
“Don’t lose your time in rituals, in smallness. Build your personality, understand Infinity, enjoy it. Find in the smallness, the Allness.” YB
Sheel, Los Penasquitos (WMA), Pacific Ocean
*If you would like to join my closed facebook group please send me message on Facebook and let me know what you hope to gain from the community experience, along with a friend request.